Usually, I would say FUCK IT…I’m not going it. That is pretty much my feeling right now as I type this. I hate hanging with my co-workers and watching them get drunk and do embarrassing things. Plus, I found out that about 70% of them find me annoying. I am just not in the mood.
So, I am making myself go. I figure that if I am going to grow as a person I need to step out of my box. It’s only a couple hours out of my day. Maybe this will show them I’m not who they think I am?
I hope I am doing the right thing. If not, I am making a wonderful 7 layer dip that is to die for!
I was having a break down because of my car being “stolen”. It was really just towed, but who knows in this town.
I was crying my eyes out to my friend. I really don’t understand what I have done so wrong in my life to deserve all that I have been through in the last couple months. I am trying so hard to get my spirits high and push through. It’s so tough and all I can think about is home.
I am making friends here and I want to love this place. All the emotion shit that is going on, I find myself just wanting to sleep. I want to hide away until this year is over. The dark cloud that is hanging over me needs to move on. I don’t like being like this.
I just need to re-focus on being positive. keep my head in the game of life.
The other day, I went to drive home and found my car missing. I thankful was with a friend that helped me look and drove me home. My car had been towed once again. Another $200 out the window. I just don’t understand. They said my car was too close to the intersection. Okay, but I have parked in the same spot for 2 weeks and it was okay for those but not now??
I have decided that I am not going to drive unless the place I’m going has a parking lot. Basically, I will have to ride my bike everywhere.
I tried taking the street car today to the FQ. I swear it took me like an hour. Waiting for the st. charles street car is like watching paint dry. I know I am going to die in this heat, but I can’t afford to risk another ticket/tow.