"To dream that a plane crashes signifies that you have set overly high and unrealistic goals for yourself. You are in danger of having those goals come crashing down. Alternatively, the crashing airplane represents your lack of confidence, self-defeating attitude and self-doubt. You do not believe in your own ability to achieve those goals. Loss of power and uncertainty in achieving your goals are also signified."
I had the worst night at work the other night. I really reached my breaking point. I have been working on my anger for awhile. But something inside me just snapped. I really hate when I get to this point. It’s not pretty or lady like. I just don’t know what to do. Let me explain.
I am a server in the airport. I technically work in a federal building. I can’t get crazy or yell when shit happens. I hold a lot of stuff in. Usually I take my vitamins and I am chill. I don’t know what happen this night, but my bad side came roaring out.
Anyway, This all kinda started Wednesday. I was trying to help Holly out and play around like she and I usually do. She told me she was busy and so I asked if I could help her out. I guess she thought I was still playing cause her responds was “I don’t have time to put up with your crap, Aja”. That pissed me off cause all I have ever done with Holly is put up with her shit. She isn’t a good worker and is usually so high that she can’t make drinks right or focus. I ignored her most of the night and the following day.
I really don’t have time for people who wanna disrespect me.
Thursday rolls up. Holly is still trying to talk to me and I am still ignoring her. I am done with that noise. I was getting awesome tips and people were being nice. I got busy and was trying to get it all done in one swoop. Once I was done with that one swoop, I would have nothing to do. While this was happening, the hostess had taken one of my tables and one of Heather’s table and put them together. She asked me to flip a coin on who would take the table. I said OK, but she walked away.
When I got out there, SHE HAD TAKEN THE TABLE.
I was so pissed. I literally took off my apron and walked off. That is money taken from my pocket. She all ready had a 5 person table plus 3 other tables. I have 4 other tables with 1 or 2 people at each of them. I have been working so hard to save money to move and to pay bills. I just broke down and cried. I was so filled with anger, I didn’t know what else to do.
I went on working my shift. All night I had been rolling silverware for our section cause no one had done so during day shift. I had sorted a bunch and had rolled a bunch. Another server, Karen got cut. She went back and rolled the silverware I had sorta and took what I had rolled.
That was it. I told my boss I wasn’t doing anything else. I have rolled almost 2 bins (about 200 silverware) and my side work for the night was to help Heather complete hers. I said I was sorry, but I would find other closing work to do. It was just such a smack to my ego. I spend so much time trying to be a team player with these people and they run all over me.
I really wanted to fight Heather. I thought about meeting her out in the parking lot or even following her to the bar she was going to after work. I was that wound up. Luckily, my friend was there and was like, “Aja, don’t let her get you back to that ugly point. You have too much going for you” For that, I was thankful.
My oldest cat is going to be 11 when I finally make my move to Portland. My mom seems to think that taking her would be a bad Idea. She think that the change in temperature, the drive, and living somewhere new will totally stress her out. This Cat is my world. I have her tattooed on me and would do anything for her happiness. Do any of you agree with my mom?
Where have you been all my life? Is it too early in our relationship to tell you that I love you and want to have your babies? I would love to chat with you and convince you to be my next ex wife. Or perhaps we can skip to the end, you can start hating me now and I will give you half my stuff. I can be bitter for you breaking my heart. Here’s to possibilities.
Hi, I’m Jake. How are you?
Ummm what are you talking about? sounds like you live in the fast lane.
Not really, but I need someone who has a sense of humor and isn’t a cold fish all the time. Serious people die at an early age. I’m gonna live
well, I am trying to save money to move. so I am just relaxing and waiting for the spring. I’ve been chilling out a lot lately. When I want something bad enough, I work hard to get it. So fun hasn’t been around lately.
I’m definitely a fan of chilling out, I’m currently in bed watching movies. I’m just never serious about it, go with the flow and be flexible.Sent from the OkCupid app
I worked a 12 hour day yesterday. I have never had to do that in my 6 years at my job. I work at the airport as a server. I like what I do. My bosses have been screwing up my schedule and only giving me 3 days to work. I asked if I was in trouble or was being a pest. The answer given was no.
Most would tell me to quit and look for a new job. The catch here is just this. I am moving to Portland in May. I can transfer my job out there. I really need a good paying job to go to while I am living there. That is why I hold on.
I don’t know what the lesson here is yet. I really hope it’s a good one!! :-)
Your profile was refreshing- so I had to write you :)
So, I’ve been here before. Here’s what I’ve figured out… The women on here aren’t AT ALL like me. They’d rather play games and not be serious. They are judgemental and make assumptions- something you should NEVER do….
Yes, I know I don’t have a picture. It’s for a very good reason- which I will not only share with you but also will share a picture with you once I know you’re for real. And NO, the reason is NOT that I’m married. NEVER married and NO kids. I do love kids though- so maybe someday…
About me: Attractive, intelligent, successful, spontaneous, motivated, sweet and an amazing catch. After meeting me, you’ll wonder WHY I’m on this site. I am wondering that too ;)
Oh, and I’m very sexual. If you can’t handle that- don’t write back. I want a woman who can keep up with me. And NO I don’t want a one night stand… never have, never will. But if I tell you it’s big, please know what I mean and don’t run away (lol). Nothing sexier than a woman up for a challenge…..
Write me and tell me more about yourself, beyond what your profile says. Intrigue me and I’ll be the best decision you’ve ever made…
Message from clearwaterguy79
I’m not writing this to be nasty, but I really think adding in your sexual appetite in your letter is in bad taste. I think that sex is a wonderful part of the relationship, but it must be built. In my experience, a man can be so wonderful in every way, but when it comes to sex, they lack. That is when other factors take over for a women. So, what i am saying is this. Get to know a women first, then their appetite for sex will come with the attraction and love you build together.
I appreciate your honesty. But I am blunt and honest from day 1. Always have been always will be :)
I was on this site months ago. I found more friends then relationships. What I did get a lot of was crazy mail from random dudes. I really think they are super funny. So, last night, I re-activated my account so that I could share with you!! Of course I am going to post them and tell you and them just what I think. it didn’t take long for the “freaks” to come out.
The Thai Buddhist temple on Palm River? That would be awesome to tag along with you, but I already have plans tomorrow (today, technically). Hit me up in advance next time and I'd love to go with you. (Not that you asked me specifically or anything, lol)
That’s the temple!! I ended up going alone. It was so peaceful. I talked to some of the people that take care of the monks. they are sooo nice!!
This is not a suggestion that you should live in the past, Pisces, but there is some moment in the past that you may want to revisit right now. It is connected to a romantic relationship of yours that flourished - at least in moments. It probably didn’t work out in the long-term, but it held…
I contacted my ex from 5 years ago last night! He and I love each other, but he messed up with me. I really wish that we could work things out and be together again. But I really feel like maybe he doesn’t see it that way. He was the only person that I lived with and it totally worked. We took weekend trips, decorated our places, cooked dinner together, and enjoy each others company. I told him last night that I wish things were different and if he wants to work it out..he knows where to find me.
I dreamt I was dead last night. It was really weird cause in the start of the dream, everything was fine. Nothing happened, I was just gone. It was so real that I woke up a little cause I was crying. I remember going to friends and enemies and writing on the mirrors in their homes that I was sorry. It was the worst feeling, but there was a feeling that it was okay. A sense of comfort.
I looked up what the dream meant. This was the best answer that I feel is the clearest.
"these dreams may mean that you feel as if you have no control over a problem or a situation you have in your life. That or you have a fear of losing control or having no control over something. Death in a dream can also be a sign of rebirth or the end of something like a relationship, a problem or a friendship. Maybe you want something in your life to end?"
As you all know, I have been battling with my love addiction. I chose to leave someone the I did care about. Only after I left them, did I see how toxic they were. Everyday I have a bleeding heart. I am growing and learning to have a healthy relationships. My now ex has a new girlfriend. He is saying all the same things he said to me, to her. I am truly worried about her. This has also caused a lack in sleep.
I am also making new steps in moving to Portland. I know this will be a rebirth for me. I am not going to lie, I am super scared. I know that if I am going to be healthy and have some sort of piece of mind, this is the way.
When you reach your 30’s you realize so much. Life becomes so full. Your Life becomes YOURS. You start making the steps to become a healthier person. Mentally and Physically you grow into the person you really want to be. You stop taking the crap you took in your 20’s. Relationship become more about quality and not quantity. The words “I love you” are easier cause you truly mean them. Everyday I wake up and think, “welcome to the rest of your life”. It feels good.
This word has been brought up to me many times in the last month. I just don’t understand why people don’t think that I’m not doing a good job at this. I have been giving up and selling everything in my life. I am brought to tears when people tell me I am not saving enough or don’t work hard enough.
In the last year, I have given up the apartment I LOVED and was so HAPPY in located in Ybor City. I sold all but 4 pieces of furniture cause I still use these pieces everyday. I don’t own a bed or tv anymore. I have slimmed down my clothes to fit in a clothes closet. I live off of $50 worth of food for 2 weeks. I live in a place where my rent is $230, it was $800.
Since I wait tables and get cash each time I work, I divide my money into my bills. I know how much I have to make each shift and each week. I put $40 aside each shift towards moving. I rarely have any money to put in my bank account. I don’t go out with friends very often cause I don’t have the money to spend. I also drive over an hour back and forth to work each day.
I would love for any of these people to be in my shoes…just for a day.
Dear new girlfriend,
I really don’t wish anything bad on you, but I just thought you should know a few things. I have been in your shoes. I loved him too. Thought he was beautiful. I would swim in his kisses and drown in his hugs. The plans we made were meant for a lifetime.
Just know that he is a lie. The words use dance off his lips. There is no soul or heart from which those caring words should come from. His actions aren’t for you, they are to further his game in life. He can’t support you mentally or financially cause that’s how leeches are. As he sucks out your energy, you will lose your mind and feel crippled. Even though he says he is not using, he is. Be ready to go to NA meetings then have him tweak out on you. I hope you are strong enough to handle all that is him.
i am sure you are a sweet girl and love him very much. We all did. That is all just part of his plan. I am praying for you. I hope you have the friends like I did to help you thru this. This will be the death of you. I have seen this death and escaped. I hope you do the same.