November 2011
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I think I just got swooned
this is a text sent to me by Adam. Oh how I adore him.
“Well have sweet dreams n enjoy ur tea!! I’ll get in touch with ya tomorrow and we can make some plans to fill our tummies some where=) and don’t sweat the small stuff aja! You are an incredible person and you look fabulous!! Pretty as can be and just as sweet! We all do dumb things and make bad decisions on occasion (lord...
The days few days...
Have been rough. I am trying to keep myself together. I am the type of person that needs something to focus on. I think this is why I always feel the need for a relationship. It’s something that needs constant attention. Since I have eliminated relationships with males for awhile, I am completely lost.
I having been trying to focus on work. I am been making awful money lately. I need to...
“Real love can never be a cause of anger; it is the opposite of anger and can...”
– Geshe Kelsang Gyatso - “Living Meaningfully, Dying Joyfully” (via dancingdakini)
touch.
I have been craving it so much lately. I remember what it was like to have that simple, loving touch by another person. It seems so far away now. When anyone touches me all I can think about is “what do they want”. touch burns my skins. makes me cringe. I want to move past this so that I can feel the warmth from another human. I think I am just afraid to feel anything right now.
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I have never been loved.
I was looking back on my life last night. Thinking of all the men that I have dated and cared about. I realized that none of them have ever loved me. I have always played second fiddle. It was either a friend, a job, their mom that was always ahead of me. Even when I was at my lowest point, the would walk over me. I am not writing this to blame any of them. To me, it’s clearly my fault. I...
I need some book suggestions.
Has anyone read “Illusions:The adventures of a Reluctant Messiah”?
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Weight
Because I live in America, I’m Fat. If I lived in Europe I would be average. I just want to be comfortable.
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Ever since I went to Portland last week I've been...
Can’t wait till it’s finally my home!!!
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I can’t wait to go back and get more. :)
Portland really is my home. I love the rain, the people, the bakeries and tea houses. It’s just so perfect.
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Today
I spent the day with my cousin and her husband. They are a young couple and so in love. It was so nice to see 2 people who fit so perfect with each other. Love is alive and well.
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Florida
I’m going to miss you and my family here. It makes we want to cry to think how far I am going to be from my mom and best friend. But all of the shady people have ruined me. I want more out of this life. No more let downs. I want us to remain close, but from afar.
I really can’t wait to make my way out to Portland. I even look forward to the long drive out there. A new life awaits me....
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Should have known better...
I wrote on my Facebook tonight this statement.
“10 Floor chart. 4 table station. The things I will do for moving money!’
The boss that writes the schedule calls me up on the phone to tell me that he hears I am complaining about the schedule he gave me. He tells me he scheduled me on friday so that I could have Thanksgiving with my family.
In return, I explain that this was...
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Discover The Secrets Of An Ex Airline Travel Agent →
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Discover The Secrets Of An Ex Airline Travel Agent Article by Tony Morrison Finding cheaper air fares is a bit like looking for the Holy Grail - pretty much impossible, because the reality is that the cheapest air fare ticket doesn’t actually exist, per se.
How To Deal with Critical People →
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metacliche
Some people may voluntarily offer criticisms, even when you’re not asking for them. These criticisms may well be out of line and done in poor taste. One way you can respond is to retaliate in anger. However, since the person must have a lot of angst to be voluntarily dispensing criticisms in the first place, your retaliation will probably only invite more of such...
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Frida Kahlo quote.
bitsnotpieces:
I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought, there are so many people in the world. There must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true I’m here, and I’m...
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I'm flipping out
Today is a day I should just stay home. I’m not feeling well, panicing, and just hurting. I believe it’s all from lack of sleep. Mostly, I believe it’s from lack of attention. It’s been a month since the break up. It feels like years since I have been with a man. It seems to all build up to a day like today.
When I get this way, I just want to run. Even tho I have been...
Radiohead.
I am super pissed at you. $184 for a ticket? seriously. I love you beyond words, but that is a huge price tag. I saw you 5 years ago and paid $84 for 12th row. I am trying to justify in my head to pay this much to see you. Thanks for looking out for your fans and the little people. fucking bollocks.
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Domestic Violence is no joke Pt.1
Earlier this year, My mom lost a dear friend to Domestic Violence. Megan Sullivan was a sweet, young girl that people really took to. Her co-workers loved her and her boss said she was like a second daughter to him. When my grandfather died, she made sure that my mom got home okay and had everything she she needed. I am writing her story here so that others can learn that abuse and violence is not...
Domestic Violence is no joke Pt.2
Upon meeting my mother for the first time, my last bf informed her during “drunken rages” I would “slap and punch” him when we lived in Orlando. This was 4 years ago and I really didn’t remember. I wasn’t dating him back them and only remembered hanging with him at school and maybe DT a couple times.
I felt so guilty the whole month I dated ******. I was like...
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chats.
I just got done chatting with my friend, Ryan. We talked about why I am moving to Portland. It was so nice to talk to another adult.
Why is it so hard to find responsible people? People who don’t depend on another person or their parents. I have never in my life asked anyone for help. I’m not saying that I didn’t work it out with someone. I can honestly say I have never asked...
